A smidgeon of Hope
Seldom is it that one experiences a new lease on life.
Hope is the most complex and tenacious of emotions a human being can experience. It can inspire you to move mountains for what you believe in. As you stare the facts in the face, you can deny them, as you cling fiercely to that fraction of hope you maintain.
It can thus be a destructive emotion.
As one breaks and breaks again one’s heart against the jagged rocks on the ocean of discontent, hope is the emotion that perpetuates the disbelief, anger, sadness, the cycle.
Is life better when all hope is lost?
No.
There is therefore both a healing, nurturing sort of hope. And, in contradiction to that, there is an assimilating, smothering hope, which destroys life.
The task at hand therefore is to identify what emotions one is dealing with at any given time. And then, to take the appropriate action.
My head and my heart are at war.
How do I let go of the pain?
posted by morbidneko | 11:15 am
As you said in the responses below, you need to just keep busy and make sure you have some human contact during this time. The pain is a part of you for a while, but that will diminish. Each step is a hurdle, a mile (or some part of a kilometer or two, I know...), but once it's behind you, it's history.
Besides, friends always have a way of leading to boyfriends. It's just a natural progression.
Every girl has an admirer at all times. It's just a fact. The thing now is to get yours to speak up. If they haven't already...
yeah - it's rough.
at what point should i give up on my true love coming back to me?
that's what i wanna know.
in the meantime - i suffer.
Do what your heart desires, guided by your head. I don't think we ever let go of pain, but when the times comes, it will let go of us.
is it more complicated than that, eoh, because i make it so, or because it really is complicated?
I have all the answers. but, what happens when i dont believe them?
It takes 2 people, committed to a relationship, to make it work. One disinterested and out of love, and one clinging to what was, do not a happy relationship make.
this is all so tragic.
and, i can't help but muse that this will probably be the biggest mistake he will ever make. and, i can't save him from himself. and thereby save myself..
excuse my disconnected ramblings.
i'm cleopatra - queen of denial.
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Hey neko! :) how are you?
(mikey scolds me because I ask when i can read, but i find its more personal this way)
hi anni.
well, if you read the prior posts, -- im not doing so great. my guy of 5 years decided to one day out of the blue gimme a phone call and tell me it's over.
so, yeah. not so great.
we are doing the best we can however. the holidays approach and im good at planning. so, im planning a holiday by the beach.
there is also a possible trip to indonesia that may happen.. fingers crossed.
you havent been in the blogmune for a while! but, it's good to see you here again!!
visit again soon!
Just when you think you've given up on love, it will find you. And next time you will be so much wiser for it.
Besides, I don't know if it's a question of giving up on love so much as finding the faith in yourself to move on and not look back at what has been lost to time.
I know it's easy for a person to talk when they're not in the situation, but I really have been there. I'm still on my own dark ill traveled road and I'm not sure when it will end. I just hope you realize that though you don't see any other souls, you aren't alone.
eric,
wise words.
love is elusive.
it also gets thrown around a lot - the word.
i suppose i just need time to deal..
life begins when you leave the nest. there is a big world out there. you can't sit at home and say the system is evil. you need to go out there and get your own. No matter if times are bad , you will find comfort in knowing it is your times that you worked for, everybody has a story to tell... Even if you are eating cold pronutro because you don't have a microwave, you'll feel a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment cause you got there on your own. just know that that's just the beginning and it will definitely get a whole lot better....
Its also the time that you learn more about yourself, you know, real strengths and weaknesses... so when you know who you are you will know what your looking for in your lover and not just fall for any old guy who seems intelligent and charming... don't be afraid to live .