d34th by numb3r5
here's an update, for anyone who cares [or doesnt]:
Im still working. things are getting busy, as its the end of 2 audits simultaneously.
others are on leave, studying for board. but, not i. the big boss seems to have gone anal. [just when i applied for leave, it seems]. i have but 2 weeks to study for the board exam. this is an exam which costs R2,500 to write.
i spend my weekends driving up and down between client offices, my job office and for classes in johannesburg. i drove about 900km over the past 7 days. i drive more than i study. and im starting to doubt the value of attending classes 350kms away.
my car is due for its 2nd service. this is gonna cost me money i dont have. the car is not even 2 years old. but, i suppose it is to be expected.
i was denied a transfer to the cape, where my lover is. denied by the very people who told me, if i pass the cta exam, they will take me. lying bastards.
one of my bosses spent most of thursday and friday yelling at me and telling me how horrible i am at my job. there i sat in his office, trying to explain my own and 2 other people's *crap* work.
im sorry, this is turning out to be more of a bitching session. but, i truly DO hate my job. i wish i could just quit, but i cant. i have commitments and contracts. im stuck. dont know what to do. im feeling tremendous pressure and im quite busy.. i should be studying, but i work instead -- to get the bosses off my arse.
guess who will be the ones freaking out the loudest when i fail this board exam for lack of studying...
the hypocracy gets to me.
**frustration**
Labels: my job sucks
posted by AristoNeeks | 12:05 pm
Sometimes life really sticks it in and breaks it off, eh? You'll be fine. Just hang in there.
The job trap is one of the worst. It has so many caught. I hope you find escape, and a place where you are appreciated and can grow.
hey neko...sounds horrible. and i'm afraid i have little advice...except perhaps make sure you pass the exam, which'll in the long run be worth more than pleasing the dumb-asses you work for now.
at my firm they pressure you to work, but the underlying idea for all students is that their number one priority is to pass exams. if you fail you're fired, so in the long run you don't help the firm by working your ass off on an audit and failing the exam.
study. you must take this exam seriously. its never too late. question practice question practice question practice. use your tutors for all they're worth. you can do it!
good luck Neko!
Do not listen to those whom do not know you. Listen to your hart, and follow it. Bosses might come and go, and in their eyes you are never good enough, but what you believe and feel, that is the goal. Trust in yourself, and always believe in yourself.