its a metaphor
there are many cages
i dont like the cage of my mind, the cage of my work contract, which keeps me binded, in a place i dont wanna be..
the cage of my studies – keeps me doing what i dont wanna do. but i dont know what else i could or would like to possibly do!
maybe i feel a bit out of control.. locked up in eternal boredom and disassociation.. alone. i dont like it in my work/life cages.
but, i like it in my padded cage, coz at least here, i have some ...voices. sort of.
my real life leaves much to be desired.
in my tortured mind, all of this makes sense.
believe this.
i dont like the cage of my mind, the cage of my work contract, which keeps me binded, in a place i dont wanna be..
the cage of my studies – keeps me doing what i dont wanna do. but i dont know what else i could or would like to possibly do!
maybe i feel a bit out of control.. locked up in eternal boredom and disassociation.. alone. i dont like it in my work/life cages.
but, i like it in my padded cage, coz at least here, i have some ...voices. sort of.
my real life leaves much to be desired.
in my tortured mind, all of this makes sense.
believe this.
posted by AristoNeeks | 3:48 pm
But at the same time, Neko, do you think you'd cope with the excessive freedom of having no cage?
You sound like you like to have things under control. I'm like that too. I hate being in the dark about anything, and hate it when I'm not on top of things. But sometimes its easier to keep things in order if you're in a cage, than if you have the world to spread your belongings...
you make an interesting point, michael..
i am a bit of a control freak at the best of times. but, simultaneously, im not happy with the result i have attained thus far in my life.
my old people say i need to be patient. things will click into place eventually.
it's a curse of the now generation.
i think im on a good course... now, if only i could b*tch less and persevere more...
I got this off Z3n Wiz@rd's site. Its a Personality indicator via Colour:
You're a Problem Solver
You are constantly considering what else each person or situation requires. You want to know what is missing. During this period of mulling things over, others might view you as passive or quiet.
The passionate you generates creative ideas. You are an imaginative dreamer. Your preoccupation with the future gives you the mental discipline to stay on track and direct others to do the same.
i agree with it.
Life seems to be a tradeoff for most of us between the extremes of TOTAL FREEDOM and TOTAL SECURITY. Neither one of these extremes I don't think would be desirable for most people.
For instance, a wolf in the arctic wilderness has TOTAL FREEDOM--he also has no earthly idea where his next meal is coming from.
On the other side of the spectrum, there might be a very good PROCTOLOGIST who has a very good client list. Everyone has an a**hole, and it is the same recurring, similar problems with the different a**holes. He makes a good living at the same clinic, every day, doing basically the same thing--he could almost shoot up heroin all day and still do his job. But he is burnt out on the monotony--
Between the far ends of where the pendulum swings might be some sort of happy medium.
The "solution" for the wolf might be to become a domestic house pet--but maybe not. There was a special on TV about a wild dingo dog who sung and played the piano--everywhere the guy took him, the people gave the guy tips to hear the dog sing and play the piano...
The "solution" for the proctologist might be to become the best proctologist in the world, and take it to the next level and start a CHAIN OF clinics, and just manage the other proctologists--and get his article on a**holes published in the New England Journal of Medicine--I don't know.
Yes, Neko. I blame the now generation too. We're too used to instant gratification: fast food, email, credit cards, cell phones, cars.
Will we ever learn patience?
Some interesting thoughts there, Neko.
Man is born free but everywhere he is in chains. I think a well-known philosopher said that. I can't remember who, though.
A couple of days ago I was drunk, and I said to my friend Christine
"Christine, there are things in this world...and I'm one of them."
We're all philosophers after a bottle of red, I guess.
I think Jean Paul-Sartre said, "Man is doomed to be free."
"I know why the caged bird sings"
Don't know who said that, but it speaks for itself. I too share your feelings, I was always great at leaving situations that felt too stifling...but had to settle eventually and change from within.
Those trapped in cages should learn how to use cutting torches.
why is life so expensive these days?
its a vicious circle
*it usually is*
winters.. the one time i ever had red wine, ((one glas, filled to the brim)) i felt quite sick. the only philosophy i came up with is, o-god-o-god-o-god-please-dont-make-me-puke-this-up-in-my-boyfriend's-house-i-know-he's-sweet-and-probly-wont-mind-but-il-never-drink-on-an-empty-stomach-again-o-god-o-god
mr wizard, the only time i feel doomed, is when i see my credit card bill, when i go to bed at night knowing i have to go to work the next morning... and pretty much any time i have to be at this soul-killing job...
imagine, if you will, a people-pleaser like myself, in a job where people hate you before even meeting you. thats auditing in a nut-shell..
poly! like me, the caged bird is probably bored. i heroically slay monsters and demons in pc land when im feeling gloomy, tho. ((no singing))
morb.. the most suffocating cage i am prisoned in, is my mind.. now, i like my hair... wouldnt wanna lose it / singe it all off...
im not very good with diy.
I think we all have the two basal irrational fears claustrophobia and agoraphobia fighting eternally for dominance of the mind. Which wins depends on whether the confines of the cage are more unbearable than losing the safety of its familiarity...
the victor of a war is not determined by who is right, but rather, who is left.
i hope i dont lose my mind in the process!
It was meant as a metaphorical cutting torch ... I'm very deep, you see.