i woke up today and wished for tomorrow

Tomorrow i head out. Gonna be a day of much travel - the culmination of 3 weeks’ planning.

It is a long weekend. Friday – Freedom Day. Tuesday – Workers Day. Monday – I put in some annual leave. Voila – Extended weekend.

Where am I going?

Well, I’m heading to Port Elizabeth. Flying to East London first tho, flights to PE were miraculously sold out, at weird times or just plain ole much too expensive. This was the cheapest combo i could dream up. [and that includes looking at bus schedules. Go Greyhound!]

anyway.

I’m very excited.

My journey starts after work today. I drive the 280 odd km’s to Johannesburg. Sleep over at my brother’s flat in Centurion, Pretoria, Gauteng. He takes me to the airport (Joburg international) at some ungodly hour Friday morning. 8am, i land in EL. I meet up with a friend i havnt seen in ELEVEN YEARS. He has agreed to drive me to PE. 3,5hrs later, i meet up with my bf (who flew in from Stellenbosch) in PE.

Talk about planning.

This will be my third visit with him this year. There won’t be another public holiday causing a long weekend till September. Dam.

Anyway, I’ll be back in Blogland Wednesday. ^_^

Wish me luck!

good music – nostalgia

last week, a guy at work let me rip a copy of a cd he bought. he was like – you gotta listen to this, you’ll love it.

he was right.

he usually is, as far as my taste goes.

so, i thought to myself... [over-analyst that i am] ... what does that say about him? and me? is it a talent he has, guessing/ knowing what kind of music any given person would like? or, does he know me that well? am i that transparent?

...

reminds me of my primary school days. my first boyfriend. he used to make me mixed tapes of songs he liked. thinking maybe i would like them. this was when cd’s were just coming out in SA. [or, where i was, anyway.] i only got my 1st cd when i was std 3, or something to that effect.

mixed tapes. heh. that was a long time ago.

**general nostalgia**

i wonder whatever happened to that guy...

100 posts

• when there is no answer
  
  i heard a couple eye-openers today (ha ha), which i had forgotten i knew. here they are:
  
  -one cannot lessen loneliness by listening to someone else, but only when someone else listens to you.
  -life is all about perception. when you get your perception right, the rest will follow.
  -You can’t compare yourself to other people, you don’t know how messed up they are.
  
  These got me thinking.
  
  Is it reasonable for me to be woefully depressed and negative all the time? To waste my life this way?
  
  People who live in the past, will never be happy. Constant regret and longing, for what could have been, might have been, should have been.
  
  People who live in the future, will also never achieve contentment. They are always waiting for something to happen, something that will make everything better. but, that something never comes. it’s always replaced by some new future goal.
  
  To be completely happy, you have to live in the moment. Forget the past. Forget the future. Live in the now. Regret nothing. And just... live.
  
  See only opportunities and challenges.
  
  [Ed’s note – so... this was my feeble attempt at motivating myself.. did i convince anybody? ... ]

twentyfour

so, yesterday was my 24th birthday.

it was a nice day. ^_^

24 is a magical number.

it means im getting old.

i was maths24 champion at my primary school, all the years they held tournaments.

24 is a really kewl tv show. [so i hear]

24 hours in a day.

24 years in my life.

my mom was 24 when she had me.

im still unmarried and living with my parents.

*sigh*

a nation of bastards

so, i was sitting at lunch today, the whole team of underlings in the audit [bosses eating at posher place, of course]. anyway. and, anti-social person that i am, i was just sitting there, staring out into space...

and i thought – wow. 3 indians. 2 white. 1 coloured. and 2 black.

the government sets these standards for the composition of staff in business in this country. if you wanna do business, these are the races you need.

its interesting.

and, i thought – what a diverse group of people. coz, everybody had different eating requirements, religions, culture quirks. its... fascinating.

anyway. id better stop daydreaming and get to work.

on the road less travelled

the week in nelspruit is now ancient history. but, what a wonderful experience that was! friendly people. city-like shops. a hire car i can't afford on my measely salary. accomodation i couldnt afford on my salary. sigh.

so, im back at the office. it's almost weekend... sorta. easter is coming up. i was hoping to drive to cape town, but, i cant find anyone crazy enough to join me on my insane adventure. it happens.

my life has not become less tedious.

i now have 2 managers who are giving me enough work for 3 people. my head hit my pillow some time after midnight -- had been working all night. at least i dont have to study now. not for a little while anyway.

i hope there is a point to this suffering.

and dont tell me its money.

HA.