In an instant
Tis a foggy foggy mind that sometimes leads my tired body.
Like today.
Impending agony numbs me. I am depressed and deflated long before the source of torment presents itself. This alone is enough to make my mood plunge even further into the depths of wailing torture.
I’m screaming. Silently. On the inside.
These zombie eyes that almost meet yours are cast down in fatigue. Emotional hurt usurps energy from the soul as efficiently as the sun takes water from the earth. It’s a universal happenstance – and there’s nothing one can do to stop it.
Two days from now, I will be alone again.
Alone, to study. To diet. To work. To be protected and held captive in my self-constructed shell, away from the world. To be by myself, again.
Alone, I suffer.
Silently, I cry.
Labels: uncertainty
posted by AristoNeeks | 10:00 am
Alone you are not alone
for we are all alone
and that is enough
to keep company.
There is something to
be said for physical touch.
I'll miss it so much.
i like haikus.
How's that old saying go?
You're never alone when you make a smile your umbrella.
Something like that, anyway.
You're never alone with schizophrenia.
and that was one demoralizing haiku, my friend.
I like them that way, so don't get me wrong.
I speak to you, silence
I know your sound well
The voice of an unused grave
but warmer, with reason
still,
be still
your voice is fading
the city chases you away
I speak, still
but not with you
for you are gone
this noise I find
strange
like my voice
but I will wait
until my friend comes
and we will say nothing
but know everything
wrapped in your blanket
with only the sound of thought
Uhggg, diet. I hate that word.
silently i sleep,
side by side in that cold grave.
alone i expire.
hi, wendy!
not so much diet, as just getting back to healthier munching habits..
^_^
i've been an overly gluttonous little girl as of late.
shame on me.
You are good, Neko. Great lines.